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I was feeling so good for a while traveling a couple hours away. I arrived back in Coronel and my sad confined suffocated feelings came back.

Ryan and I took the bus to Arauco, a small town south of Coronel. The thing that I like about it is that you can walk anywhere that you want to go. The two volunteers that live there are 5 minutes walking distance away from each other and, although it is a small town, they can walk to anything they need. It reminded me of Bagaces and I wanted to stay and teach there instead of returning to Coronel.

We spent the night in the cutest hostel. We had our own room with a little wooden stove and a cute chandelier. We were served breakfast in the morning by the owner and the nicest staff ever. On the way home we stopped in another old mining town just down the road. It is interesting to see the poverty that mining brought to the town and how the houses are stacked on top of each other and many on top of the mining hills.

I am, as always, learning about myself on this crazy trip. I realized that I have been searching for something these past few years. I thought that traveling would bring answers and it has brought much insight but nothing definite. Mabe the thing that I have been searching for doesn´t exist and I just need to settle down and be happy with what God has blessed me with at home. Oh I wish I knew.

I also learned that I am most happy when I don´t have to be dependent on other people nor on cars. I also like smaller towns in comparison to big ones but I like to go out and have fun in big cities. That means for when I "grow up" I need to live in a small town where I can be independent and move freely (GOOD PUBLIC TRANSPORTATION!) but be near a big city for fun!

How is everything at home?!? I miss everyone so much! I will be VERY happy to come home and finally settle in for a while.